Emptiness

Two days ago,It's raining heavily and I was crying.don't know who I was crying for and why, I just feels that when I crying  It's like tons of weight had been lifted.It's also bothering me to crying for no reason .

i used to be daddy's little girl that have no problems and always happy. but I have grown up and I can't always be daddy's little girl.crying for no reason makes me think am I having problems that I can’t handle ,I don’t know. I don’t even know what problems are surrounding me.

Sometimes I feel lonely ,it’s like nobody around me although I know there is

The emptiness that makes me feel want to disappeared not because of the problems but I want to.

I can’t always telling everyone what I am feeling right now. It’s so simple just to tell what’s going on and what do I feel. But I just can’t , it seems like I don’t know where to start or what’s going on now.

feels so empty,

Je

HELLO

Hey,
Sorry guys ,for abandoning this blog for almost 1 month .I just too busy handling all this stuff that my moms told me to do. And also I’m busy downloading all the Korean variety show .Anyway guys , I just upload new album on the Facebook . It’s all pictures that we took from may and June. It’s my first time tagging friends on album .It’s such a tiring job but I liked it.

Because I am so bored right now,I just write random things and take picture of random things too. haha

some random pictures: 

 The list that I made,is kinda weird i think. but it's all I can think of.
 
P.S:
Best luck for my brother and sister for their final exam.

can's wait too see my sister next month. miss you and love you always guys !

and, the last but not least Happy 1st monthsary Melisa , longlast :)  

                      Xoxo,

Je

I'M 16TH NOW

I'm officially 16th now.
I'm getting older and older. and I realized it when my mom told me that 4 years later I will be on my 20th birthday.
thank you so much for all the wished guys.
and I know that I can't walk through this hard time without you guys
you guys are awesome! the best!
I was so shocked when I open my door and there's so many things on my bedroom's wall.feels like crying when saw it.It was so neat and clean.can't believe it.and my eyes were teary when I read all the birthday's massage that stick on my wall.you guys are the best...amazed with all your hard works guys.

anw,I like the award that you guys gave to me.

                           the notes/massages that they write and stick it on the wall ,it was so pretty

           The award and card.the card is so cool.. i was shocked when the cars is playing 'Happy Birthday's' song when I opened it.

    This is compilation pictures of my fav korean singer and this was specially edited by my really good friend "Kimberly" just for me. lol

                                                    Melisa CF's

                                                            Tara

                                                             Jana

                                              Kimberly! we are the kpopers.lol Kpop daebakk!

                                                                   Pia

                                   the best sister in the world. one and only mine lol "Vania"

good night,
stay all night to updating this blog.

LOVE ,

JE

12th May 2011

loving this month

hello guys
I'm updating my blog ..
I am in a really good mood and i think I'm on my luckiest day now. few days ago,i participated on young pianist competition that was held by my music's school. and luckily,my name is in one of the participants that through to the final. can't believe it until now.
I have so much fun on school. and I'm working on my fav korean singer 'Lee Dong Hae' caricature.really like it although it's my first time making caricature.I have so much fun and I am looking forward when this caricature is finish.
I'm really having good time this Sunday,I was cooking spaghetti by myself. I'm so proud of it. it's my first time cooking something except instant noodles.lol


although it had been few weeks,but i will also uploaded cupcakes that were made by Melisa CF and Melisa Anggreani. :):)


pictures like usual;)

the spaghetti

the cupcakes

btw,congrats and longlast po :)LOL

I'm lucky girl,

Je

14th April :)

hello fellas
do you guys missing me on this blog?
i will not disappear ,i just enjoying my relaxing time
lol
just cut that above part out
don't know what I'm talking about

I'm on my school holiday ,like mid break i think.however this holiday is because the 3rd grade of High School are facing their national exam. Good Luck Senior!
suddenly remember matter that we are talking about in Gelato with my bests. oh my lord,you're the one that are selfish not me.
I miss my brother and sister so much especially when there are so many problems that i want to hear what they think about it.They are like my therapist that can make me feels much better.
will go to Kuala Lumpur tomorrow to watch Justin Bieber's world tour concert..I'm so excited and besides that I'm meeting with my sister and other friends that are going there too.


although it's too late to post about this,i just want to say
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MELISA CF AND MY BRO (GARRY)!
WISH YOU GUYS ALL THE BEST AND HAVE A GREAT YEAR AHEAD 




some pictures from Melisa CF's surprise
she doesn't thought that we are going to her house that night.she was so shocked.lol

p.s: I was the one that wearing grey t-shirt (in case if you guys don't know) lol

Love,

Je

being left out

I keep saying that's nothing bothering me right now.but I was wrong. i keep looking for the problems but i can't found it.it sounds stupid.my heart was pumping so fast lately and i still don't know why.
am I still daddy's little girl?I'm becoming more stupid lately.
All problems,happiness are coming toward me. but i just can't handle it right away.
it has been hectic day lately .
our friendship had been tested lately. I'm tired.I want to ,over on but I can't
how I wish still be a daddy's little girl,but I'm not.

everyone changed
I'm change ,i admit that i change
I miss the time that I can laugh easily and nothing's to worrying about
everyone is being selfish lately. no one think about others.
when will this problems going to an end? I'm tired.

pictures that caught my eyes on tumblr

Am I selfish?

Je

Hello April

hey fellas,
beginning a new month doesn't mean that all your problems will go away.sometimes we still stuck in problem that i think will not end smoothly.this problem had been so long we keep,we just don't want to make big problems and we know that will not end up.
don't want to talk about it anymore,it just made me sad and mad.

by the way,i love April more and more nowadays.i have sleep over at my cousin's house.really love that time. we talk about all things together.and i lo it when they are baking.can't wait the baking moment.
me and my girls are having fun to last saturday,we went to bakerzin and lekker. we take so many pictures (will upload it soon) although we hear to something that make us shock!bu it's okay.. we just have spend our really precious time with precious friends.

going to upload our pictures soon
gotta go now,will baking with my cousin's

anw,Happy Sunday guys

Hug,

Je