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A CHA 

SUPER JUNIOR

Love,

Je

keep trying

hey,

It’s like my last post was several months ago. My sister has just graduated from university and now is staying in Medan ,so sometimes it’s a little bit uncomfortable to post something on blog while your sister is looking at you. That’s why my last post is like several months ago. My sister is out of town tonight and for the next few nights. She is going to Toba lake with her friends.

I just saw my last post and it kinds of sad ,few years ago its like nothing happened in my life and I just live my life happily .I don’t know why is this weird feeling that I try so hard to avoid come back, I try my best not to think about other people thought and just being positive but it seems too much for me. I see some posts on my twitter and there is like this blood type things that said “O people is hurt very easily but don’t want to tell anyone just in case they hurt other people feeling”. It seems like same with me .I just can’t tell anything wrong or when they hurt my feelings because there’s always feeling that they will be hurt with my words.

I’m like in the grey line  ,It’s like I’m not into white or black. I just can’t describe my feelings. It’s burden me so much that I keep thinking something outrageous like they forget me ,etc. I just have to find a way to make this feeling disappeared asap.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r6TwzSGYycM

Love,

Je